I didn't want to come back after my holiday and hide, to push away any responsibility and just want to pretend nothing was happening. Most of all I didn't want to crash back to reality.
While we were away, and this is very hard to write, we found out that a very dear family member (My Aunt's father) passed away from a sudden heart attack. I have never experienced a death in my family and this hit very painfully because Ratan is the most unbelievable kindest man in the world, he is extremely funny and brings people together. It was very sudden and out of the blue and most of the family, including my aunt and her sister, were out of the country. The funeral was held on Wednesday the 4th (the day after we came back) and since then I have not really been in the mood to do anything.
There is a lot I could say about everything that has happened but for now I will leave you with this simple message.
Don't regret not spending time with your family, value them and most of all love them.